A Blessing!

SWAG.

people that actually don’t reblog this

they going to hell

(Source: xochelseaboo, via veenusramos)

Because of my situation, people often question me, if or when I’ll get married & my answer is always the same, I don’t wanna get married. I have many reasons & 1 is I’m not happy, so why should I legally commit myself into misery? 2 I don’t wanna be his second wife & have him relive something he’s already been thru & fail. And the list goes on…

I bet you’re gonna be exactly like your mom when you grow up cause you’re already acting like her!

I needa get over myself & just be thankful for what I have instead of being ungrateful for what I don’t have… I must admit, I have been bitter with envy about his past, thinking I deserve better; but he does put up with my BS, right? So, even tho he can be a pain in my… He does good things which I’ve been blind to see due to the wrongs he did. If I were to count the good & bad he’s done to me, I think he’s done more good & all I’ve chose to see were the bad, maybe because I wasn’t happy with myself for allowing things to go wrong between us. Maybe, I’ve been feeling more sorry for myself, thinking about myself more than him, making him look like the bad one… But give me the benefit of the doubt, cause I was put thru hell at times & I still have to deal with his baby momma drama. That will never go away; but she does need to get over herself & especially her gold diggin’ ego. I know it’s bad to point the blame at anyone; but truth is, she is the cause of why his life was ruined. Anyways, I admit, I did grow up too quick to some extent; but I still have more growing up to do. I just wish he wasn’t so kill joy all, so that I could atleast enjoy & be happy about life. I’m still young & have yet to experience, even tho I’ve been there & done many that’s. Happiness is key, is that too much to ask for? 

Finally back, haven’t been on since I was busy for the past few weeks; but hello Tumblr!